MRI Results

Well i'm listening to a very appropriate song while typing this post. It is called, "Shattered Dreams". Today I traveled through a supposed "snow storm" to Philadelphia to get an MRI and to see my epilepsy docs. They compared the MRI from December that showed the swelling with the MRI from today and to my GREAT dismay, there was no change. However I have been feeling great for the entire month of February. However today, I dont know if is my nerves or what, but my right leg and foot feel slightly numb. Heck, I dont know what I feel anymore. I was so disappointed. I cried. Then I stopped and picked myself up. I am up but I'm disoriented as in completely lost. I feel like Alice in Wonderland. This is not the way that I imagined this day. Not what I wanted to hear. I feel high anxiety and depression. I'm just glad that I am doing well regardless. Everything is functioning properly. I dreamed of getting my surgery over and done with in March. Alas I feel that is not going to be. Perhaps this is somehow a blessing in disguise.

Anyway, I see my neurosurgeon on Tuesday and we shall see what he says upon laying his eyes upon my latest MRI.

February 25th

Well my next MRI is next Thursday, February 25th. That will determine what will happen within the next few months. Of course I am hoping that the MRI comes out clean, the swelling is gone and the surgery to place the plate can be scheduled and I can get back to growing back my mane.

I've been doing good as of late. I did a 1/2 hour of cardio on my stairmaster on level 1. I felt a little funny afterwords because I could feel the hole in my head pulsing extra hard through my scalp. Gross right!

Still doing good as of late. Still some anxiety. Too much snow!!!!

Still Going Strong

I feel so good. I feel like the worst is behind me. I feel like I am on the mend for sure. I feel excited about life and getting mine back. I get anxiety over any little physical pain, muscle soreness or headache that I may have. I am sure that will subside overtime. I can't wait to get my third surgery over with. I know I will feel so much better physically and mentally once the hole in my head is capped. I don't know, there is always that deep dark place that fears tragedy is right around the corner again. Regardless, I am living every moment of my life with outright enthusiasm like I never have before.