T O'ed

Did I mentioned how pissed off I am? I am so angry this happened to me. I am tired of the "good days" and the "bad days". I am tired of being on this see-saw. I am tired of being disabled. I am tired of being scared to death. I am tired of being uncertain.

Dam it all! I better get some good news from these docs soon. I swear if my next MRI doesn't come out normal I don't know what I am going to do. I want this hole covered in my head once and for all! I feel so vulnerable with this freakin' hole in my head. One punch to the head and i'm a gonner.

Well I created this blog to vent. I'm going to work today even though it is a "bad" day. Not to mention I had a bad night. I am dizzy once again and my limbs just dont feel right. I cant explain it because it is so difficult to describe. There is no describing it to ANYONE because no one understands and no one can relate.

All right, well here I go, i'm going to work, wish me luck. Wish me courage. Wish me strength. My life sucks.