I always knew you were there you little Bugger!

I never appreciated my life. I took all the wonderful things for granted. I complained. I didn't have a good reason to complain but I did anyway. I used to ask God to take my life away. I hated life. I used to say I didn't see what was the big deal about life. I did say those things. I could NEVER understand why I felt that way, or why I couldn't possibly see how beautiful life was like most people. I was very frustrated by this and I suffered a lot because of it and as a result I used to wish for death, I would ask God to take my life. But in my defense I did have a big tumor located smack dab in the center of my emotional/personality part of the brain. Therefore I believe I should receive some mercy for that right? Heck, I clearly wasn't in my right mind. I always knew you were there you little Bugger! Holding me back and causing these strange and miserable conditions in my mind.

God is a gracious God and has blessed me with clear vision now. I have such a lovely perspective of life now that would have never been revealed to me if it weren't for Gods mercy and kindness. So for that I am so incredibly thankful. For this vision, for this realization of the precious gift of life. Thank you God for showing me this infinite and beautiful gift that is life! I feel alive for the first time in my life.